Chapter Two: You rang, My Lady?
In the words of a song yet to be born, there was
no country, religion, possessions --- or heaven
and hell. Only imagining. Up, up in his tree,
Graham paused life itself.
These were a solution fit only for Graham. No
more punches in the face, just the soft rustle
of leaves. No nightmares or planned escape,
but peace.
In coed y melin, or in English, honey wood
--- now called Jews' wood by the locals ---
Graham sighed and stretched.
Above... summer clouds. Then --- a voice:
his mother calling. Time to eat.
No no no !
Bed after. Shared in a room with three of
his siblings. All snoring, wetting the bed.
Making his mother hate them. All boys.
His sister next door, mendacious.
His nightmares continuing.
The next day --- out down and free ---
then scrambling up to safety. And
so it went on.
Then there were books. Instead of
Sunday school - Tolstoy. Margaret
Mead, his mothers choice.. with
Greek smutty fables. Graham
cared only... to stretch.
Soft dark olive ivy leaves gave birth
to fruit clumps, small, dark, juicy.
Graham knew they were poison.
The elm tree was his guardian.
Finally.... junior school climaxed.
Exams loomed. Graham sent to
mug up. With a private tutor....
and a new friend, also there.
His mother, had pulled strings.
She saw Graham as a genius.
Not yet. But she would make
him one. Ambition grew in
her like the ivy's berries.
As her net closed, Graham's
nightmares warned him off.
A recurring, screaming dream
where a voice behind a bush,
called softly.. coaxed. Again
and again.. Graham neared
the bush - only to find not
his mother - but a hag.
He would - over and over -
run away for dear life.....
and wake up in his bed
drowning in urine and
tears of sweat.
Each word of sharp reproach
from his mother ----- cutting
his soul away.
''More of this - and I'll put
you in a baby's nappy!''
Chapter Three. In For A Treat.
The little jewellers shop in Carmarthen, now Hearts of Gold,
in the middle of one of the High Streets --- King Street ---
had an air of excitement.
''Are you sure,'' asked Aneirin, her husband, shaking his
head, that it's today?''
''How can you keep asking?'' replied Rhiannon, sweetly,
''If I've told you a thousand times. It's due by 10, and
those poor girls will be arriving --- with just their
souls and nothing else to keep them warm.''
Rhiannon tutted as her husband - still worrying - tip
toed into the blue-glazed kitchen to make another
pot of tea. It seemed to him, a small skinny dip
of a man, that the world had gone full on mad,
and he wore a permanently pained look to
suit. He looked at his fob watch --- 6am.
His wife, ...smoothed down her dress, and thought
about what the ladies had spoken of, at chapel
last Sunday, warning: ''Two London girls - and
into their teens! Duw --- you're in for a treat.''
She sipped her tea now, peering out at the cold
early morning, waiting for that London train.
The two girls, Rita and Mary, stared at the strange
land clattering past, hills and sheep, more hills
and more sheep.. and giggled. Each had a
brown worn suitcase above their heads
on the netting, little inside besides a
change of clothes, a tooth brush
and for Mary, her orange Teddy.
''A jewellers shop,'' breathed Rita -- at 14 already
strikingly beautiful, with mounds of delightful
flesh.... secreted under her neat black coat.
She stretched her legs and arms - arching
her back: watching Mary's innocent blue
eyes ...widen.
''We'll be princesses,'' she cooed.
As the train pulled into the station, a young
squaddie on his way to Ireland gave way
to the two, as they squeezed past him.
''Hallo, gorgeous,'' he smirked - at Rita.
She stepped over his feet and smiled.
''Got a big rifle there, she flirted.
''Know how to use it, do you?''
''I know... how to slide it into your guts,''
he whispered. Holding the bayonet
up to her face, and inviting her..
to submit.
Rita ran away .....screaming softly.
There they were, waiting and watching.
By the ticket office door. They stood
now --- looking for their evacuees.
The train doors opened against the hiss
and puff of the slowing steam engine..
It was... 1942.
Chapter Four: Tucked Above the Towy
A 14 year old girl is the epitome of selfishness, but Rita was
there to look after Mary her younger sister --- two years her
junior and the family baby. The jewellery shop was in King
street. Small, but posh, Rita thought, and allowed herself
to be led upstairs to their bedroom.
Mrs Ward said she would bring them their luncheon, in a
minute now.. smiling wistfully at her new London wards.
She busied herself down in her private space - her kitchen,
where all was in its place, cutting thin slices of bread and
corned beef, with just the smallest suggestion... of home
made cake.
Rita could see little out of the attic window, and ached to
see the world outside. ''Mary, dear'', she whispered -- but
Mary was fast asleep still in her travelling clothes, her
small form tucked now, thumb in mouth, and a teddy
held warm and tight.
Mrs Ward knocked carefully, and placed Rita's plate on
the small metallic bench near the window. Love her,
she thought, as the elder girl smiled eagerly yet
raised a delicate finger to her rosebud lips.
Shhh, they both said at once, and broke into smiles.
''Well!'' said Rhiannon later that night, to her husband.
''I do believe those two children will do well here...''
''Better off than in that smokey old London, indeed,''
Aneirin replied, measuring his pipe.... squinting in
the dusk light. ''Perhaps.. you worried too soon.''
Dawn flew in - in stages of curious sounds. A small owl
hooted between silence and insistence. Then several
competing cockerels wrenched the day open. A dog
barked and set off others ...and all the Carmarthen
crows told them - to shut up.
''Breakfast!'' thought Rita, and took the steep, highly
polished wooden stairs down following her nose..
to the kitchen. Mrs Ward started - then relaxed.
''Good sleep for you two?'' she enquired, looking back
at Rita's form in the doorway. ''Yes, thank you, Mrs
Ward...'' She waited for Mrs Ward to reply with an
invitation to call her a more intimate name --- as
would be the case in London's informal way....
but it didn't happen. Mrs Ward didn't see the
look that turned her mouth down.
''There's a nice boiled egg and soldiers for you
and the little dab'', Mrs Ward voiced airily.
''That will be wonderful,'' Rita replied, with a
dazzling smile, which stayed long enough
for Mrs Ward to catch it, as she turned
with the breakfast plates.
''May I call Shirley down?''
''But of course... dear,'' the little Welsh woman
replied. ''You're not prisoners here, are you!''
It was market day, and the town on the river
Towy was abustle with beasts, men..... and
children - surprisingly - also from London.
''We didn't see one of these.. on the train,''
said Mary. ''Let's go and say hello, then'',
Rita countered and walked up to a gang
of boys trying to open a gate to a small
official looking kiosk. They were all in
long shorts, as was the way then ----
and looked at the two sisters with
pretend adult eyes, narrowed.
''Hi,'' said Rita cheerily. ''Where's all the fun,
then?'' The oldest boy stopped wrenching
at the iron gate and spun his eyes over
Rita's body.
''That depends on you,'' he smirked.
Rita called him a name that made
all the boy's companions laugh.
Then she minced away... with
Shirley toddling proudly after.
Into the adult man's world
....of the farmers' market.
Chapter Five: The farmers' Market
Of course, there was a bar... where the cider flowed like a
wolf whistle .....down gullets and into the over-stretched
stomachs of magenta-faced farmers, far into the night.
Rita crawled to the back side of the bright white tent
with the overweaned ambition - of an eager 14-year
old's ego. She opened her legs and scratched her
knickers, knowing this would be appreciated by
the drunken boyos inside... as the tent's flaps
were raised to let in a cooling fresh breeze.
''Look!'' --- whispered an elderly stockman to his young
companion.... who looked. Shocked and drawn to the
rare sight of a young ladies privates being disclosed
the young man sprawled across the gap - then slap!
He heard the struggle - saw the girl hoisted - and
returned to his seat in a quick scuttle. Mrs Ward
appeared ....staring at him with what felt like a
fatal contempt. He lowered his eyes.
Back in King Street, the elderly couple talked on and
off, into the night. Silence, dark and thick ....stained
the girls' room upstairs.
''This girl is just ---- too much,'' Mrs Ward concluded.
''Yes... I believe you know best, dear,'' said Aneirin.
''I propose that we write to the girls parents and tell
them that we can no longer manage the two girls
and that it would be best if we look after Mary
and that - sadly - Rita will have to return to
her address in Woolwich.''
''Woolwich, is now bombed most, dear,'' said Aneirin
gently. ''Because that London government ...hides
its munition factories amongst ordinary people.''
He knew Rhiannonon's views on politics, and held
his breath, waiting, looking at a calender on the
- by now.... dark yellow kitchen wall.
''I cannot help where her parents choose
to live, can I!'' his spouse snapped.
So it was settled. The two girls kissed and hugged
each other and cried. Especially little Mary, who
tried to give her Teddy to Rita as a keepsake,
then shrank back into the cold house on
King Street, Carmarthen.
The London trains were still regular because of the
Ireland connection, and, to Rita, the journey was
short. When her mother met her at Waterloo...
all was forgiven, and her parents both gave
the outraged maiden all the soothing
they could muster.
''Bloody communists - all of those rough
Welsh,'' her mother muttered, grimly.
Her father grinned, as usual. ''I expect they did
their best, so we could forgive them for that,''
he exclaimed, lighting his pipe - then fast-
skipped out ---- onto the porch.
But Rita ...would never forgave the Wards.
Or the Welsh.
Chapter Six: late!
Rita - and the war is over - is 18 now, and asks
her dad if he minds if she goes on a holiday.
Fred, her dad, is a man of wide cracking smiles
who never crosses his wife. It was she, who
got him through his nervous breakdown in
the '30s, when he could easily have been
cold-showered and electric shocked in a
place where professional detachment --
was a useful, scientific sounding way
of dealing with those who had hearts
broken by the mass unemployment
of the inter-war decades.
But Minnie had found him a generous
soul in London with more humanity -
who let him alone to grow a beard
and hair down to his shoulders....
until doctor rest and doctor time
....had let him cure himself.
Minnie then taught Fred to design, cut
and stitch clothes..... until he grew so
good at it that he now subcontracted
to a top Saville Row outlet.
''Of course you can, love'' --- and he
laughed. ''Don't worry about your
mother..'' he winked, ''she'll say
ok to it.'' He was still laughing
as Rita hugged him.
The Isle of Sark had been liberated
from the nazis, and the cliffs soar
was intoxicating .....as the ferry
slowed at the plain wooden
jetty and Rita looked for
the hotel sign.
An unofficial taxi drove her the short
distance... and refused her offer of
money, so she finally turned with
a swirl, into the hotel lobby.
By now, Rita had a figure as voluptuous
as any Hollywood star ---- and the desk
clerk's adams apple wobbled, as his
throat dried ...and contracted.
''Here's your key. Miss....'' he managed
and watched Rita's hips sway, as
she smiled inwardly.
''Boy oh boy,'' she murmered... ''Am I
going to have a real fun time here!''
There he was. On the corner. An Italian
suit and a thin dark moustache. Black
hair slicked back, carefully shod.
Rita swanned towards him then quickly
turned. He caught her arm. ''That was
a great approach,'' he grinned -- his
teeth white as the cigarette held
out to her.
Rita giggled and placed the cigarette
between her lips. ''Fancy a drink?''
Emrys clipped his silvered case
shut and waited. ''You're fast''
- said Rita, tartly.
''Come on. The pub round the corner
does great food - it'll be my treat.''
That night Rita laughed and drank
and ate ....and laughed and drank.
She gasped - as he entered her in
her room, later... her womb throb
suckling madly, feeling his slim
muscles on her, everywhere -
and cried out.
A cigarette - senior service - and
she spoke. ''Well -- you've a way
with you!'' She laughed. Emrys
nodded. Took a drag... blew
smoke from his mouth,
and said softly.. ''I'm
known as a bit of a
ram, where I live.''
Rita was tempted to ask, ''what bit
is that then?'' but dared not break
the magic.
She moved her fingers around him
and pulled him towards her.
''Again,'' she whispered.
Three months later, Emrys got a letter.
Basildon Bond. Perfume. The letter
was from Rita and told him that
she was pregnant.
It was 1946.
Chapter Seven: Sour Apples
They stood and repeated their marriage vows
in a neat office, both in their finery and never
minding the lack of friends, the downpour
outside, the gnawing, aching for release.
Emrys displayed his male show off grin, shook
his shoulders - and took in his prize, knowing
only that he was ''doing the right thing,'' or
better. He would win. He was young. She
was beauty. He would keep her.
His fiance had been told and cried, but did
not cause any trouble. He would not miss
her. Rita stood on one hip, a dark green
velveteen dress, fashionably flounced.
It was a short journey to the room where
Miss Jones begrudged them existence.
Their landlady, a fat, plain, spinster of
dubious age, needed the money, and
cold charity kept - for all occasions.
''Your family don't like me'', Rita moaned.
No gifts, no family, no honeymoon. Just
a meeting of loins.
In a sweep of terraces, covered in soot
from countless coal fires, little Lynne,
their first child, was brought into the
world --- and constantly cried.
''Take her out!'' Miss Jones insisted.
Rita would bow her head, then cut
along towards a small park, with
clouds above... and the click of
her heels below, and a girl in
the pram she hated - for the
shrivelling of her breasts...
and the way her husband
drooled over her.
Emrys worked in a woodyard across town,
his seven years of college apprenticeship
thrown away, as he pulled sacks of saw-
dust to and fro and tolerated a know-it-
all fool as his boss.
The youngsters, though, were a laugh,
and fish and chips and a cold can sat
on the roof during shut-down, were a
constant pool of pleasure, as Spring
caught this part of Wales, with soft
fingers, pushing joy into each day.
They were down for a council house,
but that would take another year, or
more. The new Labour government
was doing its best, despite the US
refusing to help with its dollars...
what to do? Emrys had joined a
union - FTAT - communist run,
and ''winning'' a farthing an
hour, each year.... almost
catching up with prices.
so Emrys paid his dues
but stopped going to
branch meetings.
''All they do is talk - about the moon
and revolution. We need a house.
Come here.'' And so it went on.
Miss Jones in her room.
Listening.
Chapter Eight: Love and Hate
Councillor Stone was a good man --- a very good man.
A Labour party stalwart all his hard life. Risen above
passion, affection, and admiration - to his true glory
in selfless service, his loving imagination fixed now
on a plan, its execution moving deliciously into the
local newspaper, the Argus. Its many eyed search
--- looking for skilled construction workers... and
the odd labourer.
''Good men, who wish to collaborate as comrades
to build a future together, will find a complete
plan explained -- as to how they can build a
new future home for their families, please
attend -- at 6pm this coming Tuesday --
at Gold Tops, 76 Field Street, where
the construction plan will be fully
explained and discussed.''
The notice above, signed by Councillor Stone,
drew Emrys' attention, and he attended well.
He watched Rita fussing at her daughter,
and decided not to tell her ...just yet.
Best wait - to see if this was real.
Tell no-one.
Work at Gabriel Wades slipped by
in a cloud of sawing wood dust.
The room at Gold Tops, was buzzing.
Thirty plus men sat on, as the maps
were distributed. They all knew at
least several others.... respecting
most as workmen or even mates.
The schedule was debated and finely
discussed: 3 years of working their
evenings and weekends.
No money up front. One elderly man
left, shaking his head. Most stayed.
At the finish, 24 stood to take the
plunge, shaking hands and feet
to show willing. Mac Vickery
approached Emrys, with
an enormous grin.
''Em, you young devil! So we're
going to be working together
...at last!''
''It's been a long time since,''
said Emrys... who'd sat at
the same desk with Mac
at the training college..
and knew him as a
sharp thinker.
''That piece of land -- is prime,'' Mac
snorted. ''It would be a sin to pass
this up.'' They parted -- each with
the same joy and quite different
thoughts and dreams.
Mac would go on - to head a large
building firm. It was said that he
would place his wooden cabin
high enough to see the work-
-men coming, and calculate
piecework and hourly pay
before each got to him -
so that their choice.....
meant just the same:
Mac's full profit.
''I wish -- you'd have that much
gumption,'' said Rita, sharply.
Her husband grinned. ''Come,''
he urged, ''and give your old
man a nice cuddle.''
She demurred. ''I'm pregnant.''
Waited. Emrys was ecstatic.
As he held her.. he knew.
She could never escape.
Their son arrived at midnight
on a freezing All Saints Eve,
almost dead.
''Accident prone?'' the doctor who
had saved his stutter into this
world, said sharply to his
fellow practitioner.
''Why, what's it this time?''
Dr Miles asked gently.
''Boiling water - on the little
boy's posterior...'' Silence.
They both knew.
The news came suddenly.
Their council house was
approved - and waiting.
Goodbye to their landlady,
Ms Jones. No handshake.
It was 1950.
Next Chapter - March 5th.